The days following my son’s birth were the beginning of the darkest time in my life. I didn’t know what postpartum psychosis was at the time or the fact that it would forever change my life. I kept saying over and over « this can’t be baby blues or even postpartum depression, this is way beyond that ». I was suicidal, hallucinating, sleep deprived and unable to sleep, paranoid, out of character and the list goes on. I never expected it to happen to me. All I saw was darkness, despite having a beautiful newborn. I was in so much pain and about to let go. But something made me hold on. 

If it wouldn’t have been for the love and support of my husband and family I wouldn’t be here today.

My heart goes out to all of the mamas who are affected by postpartum psychosis. I love you and I’m here for you. Please, don’t let go. 

Lisa